"Fuck ayoko na talaga, stop na ko. Last stick ko na to."
"Next week titigil na talaga ako."
After a week: "Ma-try nga ulit, kahit isang stick lang. Tumigil naman ako ng one week, eh"
Exactly my sentiments two years ago (when my smoking career started) I was in 3rd year college when my body discovered the need for nicotine. In my first few weeks of trying it, I consume 2 to 3 sticks only (because I don't wanna get HOOKED) but months passed by, who the hell cares if I smoke a 7 or 8? I must say that my lungs had experienced the "Dark ages" in that two years time.
Why?
-Whenever I am on a drinking session (which really happens frequently), I consume a pack (20 sticks or even more)
-My friends are into the same vice
-When I am in school, I smoke during break time, lunch time, anytime.
-Smoking at home? never let that pass, too. When no one is at home or if everyone is already sleeping.
-When I want to be stress-free, I puff. (though I know that It's all in the mind, really)
So whatever happened to me now?
I officially stopped smoking in the latter days of March this year. T'was really hard for me but I know that I can resist it, for the sake of my life. What I did? I kept myself busy doing other stuff and all my cigarettes (including lighters)-- off to the trash.
It's really not that easy to stop. You can't simply tell anyone to take out smoking in his/her system. It's a gradual process. It has been 9 months since my last smoke and I won't turn that into waste. I feel happy for myself. Congratulations, Jeo.
As for my drinking career, I barely attend session with friends now. Last time was, I think, a month ago (unlike when I was in college that drinking happens on a daily basis) I am living a healthy life right now. I do run and exercise. What I am trying to control now is my food intake (This one is waaaaaaaaaaay to hard and you all know that!)